Maybe everyone will be interested to know that I also missed that train because it arrived 5 minutes early. Obviously I couldn't be bothered to run but I was still suitably disappointed. I'm pretty bored of most things now. I guess have a really strict diet gives me control and something to do. That's pretty good, anyway I have to stick to it now that I've promised myself I won't purge or cut and if I accidentally eat something and I can't physically hurt myself I'll just be all like 'aw this sucks I'm so horrible why do I do this blah blah' and everyone will get sick of me. Especially me. I just don't wanna be that guy. I'm so not in the mood for thing right now. I have to be a maaan though.